There are many things that have happened since January. There has been a dark cloud lifted from my shoulders, and I have found some clarity in the things I missed. I will never be perfect, or completely better, but I am learning.

I am trying.

That is what is important to me.

I'm learning to love, to share, to trust. It is a scary experience, but I am doing what I can. It's hard. But progress on this front always is.

I'm doing what I can.

I don't promise I'll always make steps forward; sometimes a step backward is necessary. That is all I can expect. I just hope to make forward progress more than backward...

I will do the most I can at the time.

I will struggle up the mountain with that boulder on my shoulders, just to throw it over the side and free myself from it while I revel in the sunshine that awaits me at the top.

That sun will be so much sweeter when I catch it and keep it.